Someday...

Someday I will write what happened during my pregnancy. I couldn't figure out how to sign into my blog and I was a tad to busy to update it.

So now over a year later I am back. I am not sure if anyone will ever read this blog, but I guess I am doing this for my own good. To read how I felt in the beginning and how I feel now.

It's odd really. I still am not sure I would ever become purposely pregnant again. Not that I would ever give up my child.

I had a girl. Her name is Journey. She is beautiful, funny, loving, caring, sweet, stubborn, determined, active, squishy, and just plain cute. She is a part of me and I am a part of her. We belong together.

There are many *things* I am doing. Things I never thought I would be okay with and yet I am. It must be this motherhood thing. I am missing out- not getting to go- and yet I don't really care. *well most days anyway* at least I am not bitter about it. Strange how a little person can change you.

It's for the better. I believe God chose this path for me. That Journey entering our lives was His plan and with His help I will see that plan through.

I wrote this on FB recently: "Tonight as I watch my daughter breath while she sleeps- I will ponder life's mysteries and realize that God has given me a gift. I just hope I will keep my end of the bargain and help her grow into the woman she is meant to be!"